Thank You Allah

Life wasn't easy for me. It is.

I wish God didn't send me down here to this world. But it could be something bad I did till I was thrown down in this world.

I'm not angel, far beyond to claim myself as the messenger of Allah. How could I be tested this long non stop till I feel my life has no more purpose anymore. I have to bury all my dreams and ambitions deep down the valley of my heart cause it seems impossible to be real. All I see now is only the darkness without a single light.

NOPE! I was wrong. There is still light in my life. I have been gifted with a very patient parents and a loyal friend. There are the shine in my life.

But the question is, how long will I disappoint them.

Besides God, I only have them to rely on. When they are unable to help me anymore, just left God with me. I waited and keep on waiting for some helps from God but perhaps it isn't the right time. So I have to wait for miracle as the world keep on chasing me non stop.

This burden cant be hold anymore. I really hope all this tests will elevate me to become a better person and slave to Allah but I doubted it now. How long will I be patient, only Allah knows.

Thank you Allah.